st#4: Menghitung Hari

Menghitung Hari
Artist: Kris Dayanti

Menghitung hari
Detik demi detik
Masa ku nanti apa kan ada
Jalan cerita kisah yang panjang
Menghitung hari...

Padamkan saja
Kobar asmaramu
Cinta putih itu takkan ada
Yang aku minta tulus hatimu
Bukan puitis

*chorus*
Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diriku kini sendiri

Padamkan saja
Kobar asmaramu
Jika putik itu takkan ada
Yang aku minta tulus hatimu
bukan puitis

repeat chorus x2

st#3: Berhenti Berharap

Berhenti Berharap
Artist: Sheila On 7

Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati
Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku salutkan kemenanganmu
Woo...

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita

Haa...
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Rebahkan tangguhmu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua...

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

This Friend - Platonic relationship?

i have this friend of mine, lately, i think has shown some interests in me. i dunno...maybe i'm wrong. this friend, since he knew elmo has a girlfriend & stop pursuing me, he started to show or make a move towards me. all this while, we are just friends. i never thought him beyond friend. but, lately, he kept asking me to go out with him. what i'm afraid is he is 5 years younger than me. my  last bf also 5 years younger than me. they are the same age by the way. i don't wanna the same thing happens twice. younger means immature right? i am afraid he will be the same like the last one & turn out to be a total jerk. my last relationship was 2 years ago. i like to think that i am an independent woman. i was wondering, why i never gotta bf who are older than me. maybe, i just go out with this friend & see how it turn out. no string attached. i don't wanna think more than that. i'm afraid, by the end of the day, it's me again who's going to be hurt. what say you? Platonic relationship?

~soledad~

Friends that are no friends

It was soo hurtful until it made me cry when people you thought are your friends totally ignored you & did not treat you as a friend. You are totally invincible in their eyes. We become totally like strangers in front of each other. Maybe what i was thinking before to disassociate myself with this group of people is the right move. Maybe God had shown me their true colours so that i will not waste my time & energy with them anymore. I know my life will be empty in the future with no friends but i must go on & be strong.

I don't want to shed anymore tears for them. They don't deserved it. Today, let just say that it will be my last tears for my so-called friends. If you are my true friends, you will at least say hi or smile at me. I didn't received any these past few days. I never hear any concern from you guys. You guys just totally ignored me. To Sadie, it was always me who become you ears, but you never become my ears. I always listen to your problem when you need advice. When you needed help or asked for something, it's hard for me to refuse you. But, i never ask anything in return or asked you to pay back until you totally forget about it.

Although by withdrawing from this friendship meant i will be alone, i just need to suck it up. All this while, i always been left out from their important activities & outings. They never ever asked/invited me to join them. And, i'm tired to think maybe only I alone who thinks or considers that they are my friends but in actual facts they never treat me as one. So long my so called friends ...

p/s: to Sadie, although i hate to say this...what an opportunist you are. you only needed me when you have problem & when you dont have anyone to turn to. You are fair-weather friend.
to Elmo, no simple hi from you even you walked pass-by me. Oopps!! I forgot. I am no use to you anymore & it's okay to forget about me, right? Besides, you are happy now. My bet...(although your action was hurtful today). I wish that you don't treat me nicely before & i wish that i don't have any feeling for you, so that it'll be easier for me to forget you.

God, i am sorry to say these things about them. I know I dont have a right to judge them. Maybe I am wrong. I just need to let what inside me out. If i dont let them out, they'll eat me slowly & i'll fell depressed. i dont know where to turn to God. Please forgive me Lord for thinking that way..

~soledad~

st#2: Alexandra Burke - Hallelujah

Hallelujah lyrics
Songwriters  : Cohen, Leonard
Singer           : Alexandra Burke

I heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do ya?

Well it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya

She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Is how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya

It's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not someone who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Happy Sunday. May God bless this world with lots of LOVE.
Lord, give me strength & abundance of love, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

~soledad~

::take a bow::

1...2...3...breath in, breath out

(singing to rihanna's song 1st)
Oh, how about a round of applause?
A standing ovation?
But you put on quite a show, really had me going
Now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it's over now
(But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now


now, you're announcing to the world that you are with this girl
i think i will stop put my hope on you
you really played with my heart well
you trampled my heart
you gave me hope, and you took it away
you've being nice to me
telling everyone i am your 'love'
but at the end of the day
i'm still not good enough for you
i am still not that GIRL for you


i'm sorry, i cannot be happy on your happiness
although everyone wishes you the best
i don't think we can be friends now
i don't think i can hangout with you again
i will leave this group of friends slowly
i don't think we can be in the same cycle of friends anymore
because i cannot face you with her
please, don't say you always like me, if something went wrong
like you did before
i'm afraid i will still hold on to that tiny hope
i don't wanna wait anymore
the waiting has to stopped
with that, i'll take my bow


Dear God, please send me someone to love
someone that will love me unconditionally
i don't wanna be someone's second choice anymore
give me my happiness o Lord.


~soledad~

st#1: Menyesal - Ressa Herlambang

Artist: Ressa Herlambang
Song  : Menyesal

semula ku tak yakin
kau lakukan ini padaku
meski di hati merasa
kau berubah saat kau mengenal dia

reff:
bila cinta tak lagi untukku
bila hati tak lagi padaku
mengapa harus dia yang merebut dirimu

bila aku tak baik untukmu
dan bila dia bahagia dirimu
aku kan pergi meski hati tak akan rela

* terkadang ku menyesal
mengapa ku kenalkan dia padamu

repeat reff [2x]
repeat *

p/s: ST (stands for Song Time). Check the playlist & video!