He's into you, He's not into you

All this while, all along I knew that this one guy is into me. We've known each other for about 5 years. He told me he likes me (via sms & chatting). He told almost all his friends that he likes me. What keep bothering me until now & this is the reason I did not show my feeling to him is I don't see any assurance or feel secured about his feeling. He's just being loud in front of his friends or dare to make moves when he's around his friends. Ever heard of the phrase "Action speaks louder than words"? This phrase is best describe about this guy. I can only hear about how he likes me from his friends, my friends & when I meet him with his friends, he'll show to the people around us or tell the people around us as if I am his "love". But, when he is alone with me, he become quiet & shows less interest in me. He would not dare to look me into the eyes. It's like I got mix messages from him & he is totally different person when he's alone with me. I think most of people in the office would say that he likes me when ask who does he likes. But, I still don't believe it...

The reason is because he never really shows it to me he really likes me. I keep hearing from his friends that he went out with this girl, that girl. Or I will be seeing him close with girl A or girl B, so where is me in his heart. That what made me skeptical about his feeling towards me. Although I do not show that my feeling is mutual, deep down  I still feel doubtful about his true feeling. I do not feel secured at all. This is why, I never say it out loud because I'm afraid of getting hurt by the end of the day. Sometimes, when I give him some hints about my feeling, he seemed lost so that was a turn off. He doesn't know how to lead. Somehow, I thought he thought that I am not interested at all. You are wrong my friend. It's just I don't see you showed enough of your feeling or were you being sincere enough. You only show it when you are with your friends. Plse don't show your jealousy if I am being friendly or close with other guys.

Today, again I saw pictures of him with this girl taken so closely & in friendly manner. No wonder for these past few days, he did not pay attention to me. Really a turn-off. Sometimes, I wonder if you really like me, you will dare to say it to my face (face to face) that you really like me. Be a man. Maybe He's Just Not That Into Me. I think I will not put my hope that maybe this will work. I guess I should treat him just as it is, not more, bit less.

p/s: Elmo, maybe you thought I am not interested at all but I just wanna see are you man enough to say/talk it privately to me. All this while you only say it when people are around. And, it's kinda like a joke to me. I'm a girl remember? Be a gentleman.

~soledad~

Here's a trailer from movie He's Just Not That Into You starring  Ben Affleck, Jennifer Aniston, Drew Barrymore, Scarlett Johansson, Sasha Alexander, Justin Long, Jennifer Connelly, Ginnifer Goodwin, Kevin Connolly, and Bradley Cooper. Nice message girls.